How the hell did I get here?
When did I get to 29 and how can I make it stop?
Well, I guess I should start by saying that today is my birthday. October 1, 1989 is the day that I was born, well the day me and a bunch of other babies were born (one of which is the magnificent Brie Larson #birthdaytwins). Today is my 29th birthday and I am … emotional.
It’s definitely the same rollercoaster of emotions every single year but this year feels a bit more impactful. Maybe it’s the realization that I am officially on my last year of my twenties, maybe it’s the realization that I’ve allowed myself to put things off because I felt young enough to keep failing, maybe it’s the realization that I need to get my shit absolutely together. Don’t get me wrong, I am ambitious and constantly working towards bettering myself but the big dreams, the real dreams those keep getting pushed to the side. Though I do feel the most confident in myself than I have ever felt, I somehow still don’t feel good enough and maybe that’s a thing I’ll have to forever keep working on.
Enough about my shortcomings!
Twenty-eight was the year of growth. I became an activist. I became political. I wrote a lot. I sang off-tune. I danced too often. I laughed and laughed and laughed. I had to grieve the loss of three different people. I traveled. I watched movies. I binged on television shows. I cried and I cried and I cried. I fought with friends. I fought with family. I compromised. I won arguments. I continued traditions. I made new friends. I forgot to appreciate a certain old friend and ended up losing her. I made more mistakes than I can count. I succeeded more times than I ever have before. I dated. I left dates. I laughed at dates. I got angry at dates. Dating in LA is the worst.
Twenty-eight was kind of wonderful.
So here we are, on Chapter 1 of twenty-nine and boy am I anxious about it. This year feels big. I’m no psychic (though 13-year-old Julie really, really wanted to be) but twenty-nine feels like it’s going to be life-changing. I am well on my way to finishing my screenplay. I have started getting a pitch together for a TV show. I am more active on my website and my traffic keeps growing month-by-month. I am on my way … I think.
Well, here’s to getting shit done … here we go …