I can already feel myself regretting this.
I might just be riding the high of June; my confidence feels inflated since I’ve had a pretty great month and now I’m about to make a promise that I’m not sure I can keep. Maybe I read Shonda Rhimes’s book a bit too quickly and I confused her words for suggestions on my own life. Yet, maybe this is exactly what I need.
It’s recently come to my attention that I tend to cancel plans often. Sometimes I have very valid reasons and other times, I just pretend that I do. It’s not that I enjoy being the one that bails on people; it’s just the social-anxiety, the need for sleep, a fear of leaving my comfort zone and a new Netflix movie tend to always take precedent. It’s a problem. I am aware.
So after turning these thoughts over and over in my head and coming to the conclusion that being the person who constantly bails is pretty depressing, I’ve made a goal for myself. July is the month of yes! Barring any family situations, I will be saying yes to any and all plans.
To my friends reading this: this is not permission to ask ridiculous things of me.
When Shonda Rhimes did this, it was for a full year and it seemed to change her life for the better. I am somehow riding this Pride month wave and optimistically hoping for the same outcome. I mean, truthfully, what’s the worst that could happen? …. don’t think about it, don’t think about it.
So here we go, July is about to be wild!