I’d like to say I’m writing this after having attended the most epic New Year’s bash. The truth is, I rung in the New Year with a solo dance party in my bathroom, while wearing a face mask and eventually going back to my room to finish the Taylor Swift concert movie on Netflix … all while being high out of my mind.
Clearly, my New Year’s Eve was better than yours.
Epic bash or not, 2019 is officially here.
Is it cheesy to assume that with January 1st comes a new wave of confidence accompanied by a clean slate all ready for you to attempt to conquer?
Well line me up with behind me the basic bitches because I have my resolutions in one hand and the self-confidence to conquer to world in the other. Sure, literally nothing has changed between yesterday’s me and today’s but I am choosing to grab on to the new year with a head full of possibilities. 2018 was the year of learning.
Learning to deal with my anxiety. Learning to forgive. Learning to accept how hard I work to push people away. Learning to allow my family to fend for themselves. Learning to accept compliments. Learning to move on. Learning to scroll through the day’s news cycle without having a panic attack. Learning when to stand up for others. Learning when to stand up for myself. Learning to let go.
Here I am, letting go.
Maybe nothing has changed but I am choosing to push through the fear in 2019. No more writing on my spare time. Here’s to making the writer in me, a full-time employee in 2019. Here’s to dreams that refuse to die. Here’s to the ones who dream, foolish as they- wait that’s La La Land.
My point is, maybe creating a clean slate on January 1st feels a little cheesy, but what is wrong with cheesy when it pushes you to be better? I embrace the cheese and get ready for a year full of possibilities.
Join me for the ride?