The last time I participated in National Novel Writing Month was in 2013; I completed the challenge and by November 30th I had 80,000 + words and I held the first rough draft of my book. It was emotional, it was amazing, it gave me energy, it gave me hope. Then I printed out the 80,000 + words and never looked at them again. Okay, so that’s not totally true; I did try editing it once, twice, three times but I always gave up. So it’s still here, in a pink binder on my desk, with red marks on the pages. So here we go again! November 1st 2015 and I am absolutely ready – okay I’m kind of ready, kind of. Well, I’m more ready than I was before.
I am choosing to start living by this quote, I will live, breath, and be this quote. Me and this quote are about to become best friends. Shonda Rhimes gave a speech once (one of the many times that she has given powerful speeches) and she said some life-changing stuff that opened my eyes to the way I was choosing to live my life. She said a lot of things, but the one part that stuck out the most is:
“So, Lesson One, I guess is: Ditch the dream and be a doer, not a dreamer. Maybe you know exactly what it is you dream of being, or maybe you’re paralyzed because you have no idea what your passion is. The truth is, it doesn’t matter. You don’t have to know. You just have to keep moving forward. You just have to keep doing something, seizing the next opportunity, staying open to trying something new. It doesn’t have to fit your vision of the perfect job or the perfect life. Perfect is boring and dreams are not real. Just … do. So you think, “I wish I could travel.” Great. Sell your crappy car, buy a ticket to Bangkok, and go. Right now. I’m serious.
You want to be a writer? A writer is someone who writes every day, so start writing. You don’t have a job? Get one. Any job. Don’t sit at home waiting for the magical opportunity. Who are you? Prince William? No. Get a job. Go to work. Do something until you can do something else.”
I think I’ve been scared to begin editing my book, because what if i start editing and I realize that it’s crap? What if I’ve been following the wrong path all along and I’m not actually meant to be a writer? That is the part that scares me the most. With all of that pushed aside though, I am choosing that today, November 1st 2015 is the day I forget the fear and I DO, I write; I am going to bare my heart into this book and I am going to trust that my gut feeling has been right all along.
The story that this book is about is one that has plagued my brain for a very, very long time. It’s a story worth telling and I am choosing to believe that I am the one meant to tell it. (I am typing very confidently as a shiver runs down my spine.) So here goes the first day out of 30, there’s no turning back my book begins getting edited today …
In terms of NaNoWriMo, I don’t think I’m going to keep a word count; I’m just going to write and by November 30th I am hoping to finish editing the first rough draft. I will be posting updates semi-regularly so remember to subscribe/follow the blog for updates that go directly to your email <3
Are you participating in NaNoWriMo this year? If you are tell me about it in the comments 🙂