Do you ever listen to a song and think, this is the song I want people to think of when they think of me? Do you ever hear a song that reaches so deep into your soul that you’re certain that the songwriter has to have read your diary?
I believe in music anthems; I believe that there are songs out there that can perfectly describe you or your life. I believe that there are songs out there that can be your life anthems; they can become your mantra. This is what I think of when I listen to “Woman (Oh Mama)” by Joy Williams.
It took me a minute to warm up to the song when she first released it earlier this year because it was different from what she had previously done but by fifth replay the song had embedded itself in me. So, as I begin my journey to editing the rough draft of my very first book; this is the song I am blasting. This is the song I am choosing to live by. This will be my anthem for November 2015. I will take what I have learned in the 26 years of being a woman on this earth and I will pour my soul into this book.
Woman make, woman take
Woman see, woman breathe
Woman carries the burden of knowledge
Woman always the one to be blamed
Woman shoulder the men of the nation
Woman free you from sorrow and shame
I have put off editing this book for two years. TWO YEARS. Why? I have no idea – Okay I just lied to you. Of course I know why! I put it off because I was afraid of it not being good enough. I was scared that I would begin to edit and realize that my writing is absolute crap. I was petrified that the gut feeling I have, that this is what I’m meant to be doing, is completely off. I also put it off because, what happens after I edit? I edit again … and then? AND THEN? Well, then I have to actually start sending it out to publishers and that is frightening. Forget clowns, though I do suffer from Coulrophobia, my book never getting published is my real fear. With that being said, I am placing that fear in a box, with a lock, in the very back of my mind and I am going to exude confidence.
I am going to take Joy Williams’ words and I am going to write, write, write.
Woman dream, woman hate
Woman cry, woman break
Woman hold you in the palm of her hand
Woman changing the mask on her face
Woman stand with her feet in the fire
Woman only one thrown in the flames
I love music, because it not only makes you realize that you are not alone in your struggles but it also motivates and inspires you. It pushes you to become the person that you were always meant to be. I am dedicating November 2015 to the Julianna I wish to become; confident, powerful, emotional, hilarious, and inspiring. The Julianna that I know is somewhere in here, hidden behind the fear and the anxiety. This month will be a journey in itself but I am determined to come out stronger and better than ever.
Woman Mary, Jezebel
Woman heaven, woman hell
Woman teacher, womankind
Woman nature, woman rise
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