It’s been a rough couple of weeks guys. I find myself walking around with a smile on my face every day but the reality is, I am a depressed wreck. Some events have gone on in my personal life that have made it fairly difficult for me to continue on with my happy attitude. I won’t bore you with the details of the situation but the point is that I’m trying to push forward. Even when life is constantly reminding me of my sadness. Even when a certain person blatantly shows me how little they care about me. Even when I tell said person how they can make things better and they refuse to. I am trying to keep it together.
I am pushing through the sadness but I am constantly feeling defeated. It is a tragedy to feel like someone you care about has let you down. It is heartbreaking to realize you don’t matter to someone. It is a reality that I now have to live with. I am finding it difficult to get past this realization and move on with my life. I find myself sulking and crying over a person who has very clearly moved on. Enough is enough.
This situation is affecting every single aspect of my life and I say no more. If something good happens, I can’t get too happy because I immediately remember that I am still grieving over a lost friendship. Pathetic. I’ve done enough sulking and I’ve done more than enough crying. NO MORE. I cannot continue to just exist, I can’t continue to just survive. I must LIVE. I am destined for an extraordinary life, I truly believe that.
So on this Music Monday I want to introduce you to a song that came into my life at just the right time. The song? “Survive” by Madilyn Bailey.
Love is around, love is around baby
Tryna get out, tryna be found and maybe
I’ve gotta get lost to get where I’m going
Madilyn’s EP Wiser dropped last week and every single song in it is absolutely breathtaking. However, this song jumped out at me and demanded my attention as soon as it started. The message of the song is not only what I needed to hear but it’s definitely a sentiment that needs to be felt throughout our society. We’re so wrapped up in our phones, our drama, our jobs; how many of us are actually living?
I don’t know about you but I constantly feel like I’m just existing. I go days without realizing that days have gone by. I’ve lived my last couple of weeks just surviving the pain and unaware of anything else around me. My life has been put on hold while I try to sort through my feelings and I say no more. I am worthy of someone who cares about me and I’m not just talking in a romantic sense. I mean, I am worthy of strong and reliable friendships. I have fought hard for this particular friendship to stay in tact but I am currently a one woman army and I’m exhausted. I choose me. I choose my own mental health. I choose a happy heart. I choose a genuine smile.
So eternally grateful that Madilyn’s EP dropped this past week because her music took me on a healing journey that was desperately needed.
Do yourself a favor and take a listen to her music. I promise happiness and healing will come from her EP, trust me.
Her Facebook is HERE.
So tell me, what’s your favorite song off the EP?
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