Well, its’s been a minute since I posted something for Music Monday but I’m happy to say that I am slowly crawling out of my depression hole. I’m not out of the woods just yet, but I see a glimmer of light in the distance. I’ve always found comfort in music during the darkest of moments so imagine the happiness in my heart when Joy Oladokun dropped new music this past week.
You may remember I discovered Joy’s music in May of last year (link) and truthfully, I have been anxiously waiting for new music from her ever since.
I’ve been drunk for three years and fifteen days
All that perfume that you wear
And that good look on your face
I ignored all my worst fears
And now this liquor won’t chase
The thought of you from my head
My mouth still stings from the taste of it
Well this past Friday Joy graced us all with new music and in related news: my roommate has officially requested that I play something else because I’ve been playing “Sober” nonstop since its release.
Have you ever been in a relationship that felt intoxicating? If the answer is yes (and it probably is), then “Sober” is the song you need in your ears right now. Music has the ability to begin healing the wounds you keep pretending aren’t there.
So when I was 23 I began a relationship with a man who was a bit older than I was and the relationship went from 0 to 60 in the span of a week. It was passionate, it was dangerous (because of who he was, not because he abused me), it was everything beautiful about relationships while being everything you needed to get away from; the relationship was a rollercoaster and I often couldn’t decide if I wanted to get off or if I wanted it to keep going.
We traveled at light speed for the first few months of our relationship and when we finally slowed down, we realized the chaos that was left at our feet and it was truly a nightmare we both needed to wake up from. The demise of our relationship was even more catastrophic than the beginning of our relationship and yet after all of it, I still found myself aching for him when it was finally over. Insert here a couple of months of each of us going back to each other and an extra week of name-calling and late-night fights, with a couple of days of desperately crying out for each other and you have a toxic relationship coming to an end.
I’ve always struggled with discussing that particular relationship; maybe it’s because I was just as bad for him as he was for me. Maybe it’s because I am fully aware of how broken we left each other and my culpability weighs heavy on my heart every time I allow myself to think about it. Well, difficult or not Joy has found the necessary words to get through the ache.
Now that I’m sober my temperature’s a little colder
I see it clearly now, I only fell for you
‘Cause I was young, dumb and broken
I hate being sober
My hands are shaking and the nights are lonely
I put my body and my soul through hell for you
Why does it hurt that it’s over?
Joy is the perfect amount of vulnerable in her music; she gives you enough story to keep you interested and provides an insight into her heart, all the while giving you a chorus that’ll get stuck in your head the rest of the day. Whether it be in her words or in the instrumentals that seem to sway your heart with care, it’s clear that Joy gives her all when creating music. I am officially a huge fan and though her home base seems to be in Nashville for the time being, I can’t wait for the day when her music brings her to Los Angeles.
So do yourself a favor and listen to “Sober” I guarantee that you will not regret it.