The last few weeks have been emotional.
I feel like it’s been a while since I’ve written anything and it wasn’t for lack of trying. I’ve been in a real funk lately and the funk has been accompanied with crippling writer’s block. The last thing I want to do is bring the party down, but if I can be honest: I’ve been truly questioning this writing path and whether all this work is even worth it. It’s not that my life is falling apart, it’s actually quite the opposite, my day job is going great and I’ve recently received a promotion that has helped advance my career. I just think that all my day-job greatness is adding to my anxiety.
Should I continue to invest in my writing when it feels like every time I take one step forward, I get pushed back three steps? Not only that but should I invest so much time on my writing when I should be focusing on the thing that is actually paying my bills?
The funk is real and I’m struggling to get out of it.
I’ve tried multiple things to get out of this mood and yet the only thing that worked and got me on this laptop writing was good music. This past Friday I got lucky with good music that filled my heart with joy and it was all thanks to Lewis Capaldi and Jessie Reyez.
Individually, both of these artists have created music that I have constantly replayed and together they’ve created my new favorite song. When I first heard that they’d be bringing their powerful voices together, I knew the song would be absolutely magical.
I hope you’re lonely, hope you’re lost ’cause I’ve been
And I’d hate to think you’re better off without me
I know we tried to hold on
But where do you go
When love, it just ain’t enough?
Now, does it kill you when you think about me?
Are you as close to giving up as I’ve been?
I know we kept losing touch
Got lost in the rush
I pray you don’t hurt too much
This song is heartbreaking in its content as well as in its delivery. Lewis and Jessie are masters at delivering and emotionally-driven rendition of any song and “Rush” is no exception. I wouldn’t of pictured this duo together but now that I’ve listened to this song at least 30 times, I can confidently say that their voices make absolute sense together. The same chills that ran down my arms when I listened to “Figures” by Jessie Reyez appeared when I listened to “Mercy” by Lewis Capaldi and suddenly I don’t remember what life was like before their music.
This song deserves to be listened to and Lewis and Jessie deserve all of the success that can come from their magnificent music. Good music makes everything a little bit better and maybe my anxieties about the future are still there but at least now they have a beautiful soundtrack to go along with the over-thinking.