I tend to live with the negativity for too long.
If you scroll through my posts, you would find that they’re full of positivity, moving on and persevering; but in reality I’m not very good at any of those things. Sure, time has taught me how to be better but I do continue to find myself living in the negativity. I am the Queen of over-thinking, I am a pro at holding grudges, I don’t consider issues resolved until they’ve been talked about for endless amounts of hours and even when proclaiming that I’m moving on; there’s a low chance that I’ll actually be moving on.
I am trying to be better.
I think I fill my writing with optimism because that’s who I want to be at my core. I want to believe that some people are meant to come into your life, make an impact, tear shit up and walk away without an apology. Struggling in life is how you get stronger and though I’ve set up this post to make you believe that I’m full of negativity; somehow I still am grateful for the struggles. Every single time I go through something heartbreaking, I am reminded of how strong I am. The problem rises when it’s time to move on.
Which is why, for this Music Monday, I want to talk about Kesha’s new song: “Learn To Let Go”.
Kesha had this to say about the song:
“Learn to Let Go” is more than a song title… it’s become one of my mantras over the last few years. As much as our past creates who we are we can’t let it define us or hold us back. And especially if you have been through something hard, and we all have, you can’t hold on to resentment because it’s like a poison. You have to learn to let go of those bad feelings and move forward.
Can we all take a lesson from Kesha? This woman has gone through something traumatizing (and everyone has known about it), yet she has taken this horrible situation and has created inspiring music from it.
This is who I want to be; I want to be Kesha when I grow up. Though the smile is present on my face now, in reality I didn’t truly know how to smile until after I started going to therapy (4 years ago). I had a difficult childhood; I had to grow up very quickly and I still find myself struggling with my demons from those events. Even with help from a therapist, I still struggle to let go.
I want to bottle up Kesha’s strength.
Been a prisoner of the past
Had a bitterness when I looked back
Was telling everyone it’s not that bad
‘Til all my shit hit the fan
I know I’m always like
Telling everybody you don’t gotta be a victim
Life ain’t always fair, but hell is living in resentment
Choose redemption, your happy ending’s up to you
Every single song Kesha has released from this album has been powerful and there is no doubt in my mind that this comeback of hers is just getting started. Please listen to this song and share it with someone who is currently struggling.
I’d like to add:
I’m currently writing a movie, when I say currently I mean I wrote half of it then accidentally deleted the file and now I’m rewriting it (embarrassing). I am taking the events that happened when I was a child and I am wrapping them up in a movie that may impact somebody out there. In the process of rewriting I found myself completing the final scene before I completed any other scene and in this end scene, I’ve written it so that Kesha’s song “Praying” is playing. Nothing else about this movie makes sense except for the fact that I want this song playing at the end. So this is me putting my dream into The Universe. xx