I’ve had a week and a half away from my day job and it has been a week and a half of meditation and reevaluating my life. I am the kind of person who very easily becomes comfortable; I adjust, I avoid change and I often forget to challenge myself. I have many of them, but I would say that this is my biggest flaw. My ambitions are many and most of my goals seem unreachable which in turn makes me consistent with forgetting to pursue the dreams that I want accomplished. I often think that I dream bigger than I am and I know that I need to stop doing that.
The Universe remains consistent with the signs it decides to send me and this particular sign came in form of a song by Sara Bareilles. (If you’re a consistent reader of this tiny blog, then you’ve heard me rave about Sara Bareilles before.) Sara recently released a song that will be a part of the upcoming film, Battle of the Sexes (a film about the infamous tennis match between Billie Jean King and Bobby Riggs); the song is “If I Dare” and I need you to listen to this song.
If I dare to ask it
And I dare it to be true
If I dare to risk it
And I know that I’m willing to
If I dare to want this
To want more than I have
Than I dare to believe
I’ll have it in the end
Music is my happy place and Sara Bareilles, with the help of her magical discography, is clearly the President of my happy place. This track, which she collaborated with Nicholas Britell on, is just further proof of her majestic power. This song is not only powerful in its message but Sara’s vocals are exemplary. There’s a particular note she hits that consistently brings chills down my arms when I hear it. This is the song that I have started my days with this past week, this is the song that I hope engraves its message within me, this is the song that is slowly shaking me out of my comfort zone.
At my core my soul is a writer wanting to tell stories that shake YOU out of your comfort zone, yet I find myself in love with my Hotel job and too afraid to make any sudden movements. What if I fail? What if my writing is not as life-changing as I assume it is? What if I try and nothing comes out of it?
But, what IF I DARE?
What if excuses become obsolete in my Universe and what if I just go for it? Imagine the possibilities! A tiny anxiety attack threatens my nervous system if I even begin to think of it but I know that I am tired of comfortable. I am tired of assuming that I’m not good enough. I know that in the quiet of the nights, when it’s just the music, my most-honest thoughts and myself that’s when I can finally admit that I am fully aware of the magic inside of me. Why am I so afraid to shine in front of everyone else?
When the room gets dark and I am quiet
There’s a voice that’s soft like someone’s silhouette
Saying don’t let me go yet
My life is a constant reel of ridiculous events but one constant has remained for a few years: Sara Bareilles’ music heals the pieces of yourself that you’ve forgotten about. “If I Dare” is powerful and necessary in this world. If ever the craziest of the dreams ( “… and the Oscar for best Screenplay goes to”) comes true, then you’ll hear me thank Sara Bareilles from that stage.
With that being said, I think we’ll be seeing Sara on the Oscar stage for this song … mark my words.