Jason Mraz’s birthday was the other day and as I wrote him a message on Instagram (a message that he more than likely did not read) I started thinking of the impact his music has had in my life. So I figured a Jason Mraz Appreciation Post was necessary, buckle up it’s about to be an emotional ride.
Trigger Warning. This is an extremely personal post and I will be discussing depression.
Jason Mraz came into my life at around 2 am some time in 2012. I had just hit rock bottom and was scrolling through YouTube videos while everyone in my house slept. As tears rolled down my face, with a bottle of pills clutched in one hand; I accidentally clicked on a random video. To put it bluntly; I was contemplating suicide. It’s not something that is easy to talk about, it’s actually not something people talk about at all. I have struggled with depression for most of my life and 2012 was a particularly difficult year. My parents had just separated, my mother moved back to Mexico, I was in and out of bad relationships and my father despised how emotional I constantly was. I searched my brain for reasons to stay alive and I could not find one reason, so there I sat with a bottle of pills in my hand. So I click on a random video and the random video was Jason Mraz and Toca Rivera singing “I Won’t Give Up”. Between the tears and the rattling of the pills in my hand I didn’t really hear the song the first time around but something about it caught my attention and I replayed it. I put the pills down and I listened.
I don’t wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I’m here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got, yeah, we got a lot at stake
I had no idea who Jason Mraz was but in that moment he completely changed my life. A lot of things have changed since that day but the one constant that has always remained is Jason Mraz’s music. Since then, I have seen him live 6 times and every time I leave his show feeling energized, motivated, happy to be alive and ready to conquer the world. I think what makes Jason Mraz’s music special is how genuine it seems. When he performs, he leaves it all on that stage; the energy radiates off of him and his positivity becomes contagious. The Universe seems to be aware of how much I need his music, because it tends to bring a new song of his into my life right when I need it.
A few days before I made the decision to start going to therapy and get some help with my depression Rough Water by Travie McCoy feat. Jason Mraz dropped. After the 5th time of listening to the song I started thinking about getting help for my depression. When one of my best friends completely betrayed my trust and treated me like dirt, my depression started getting the best of me; that’s when I first stumbled into 3 Things by Jason Mraz. When I decided to forgive the friend that treated me like dirt, the song that convinced me to do so is Out of My Hands by Jason Mraz. Recently my best friend and I have drifted apart (I say drifting apart but I’ve just deleted his number from my phone sooo it’s safe to say that the friendship is over; I’m okay –
I’m not okay). The only thing getting me through the situation is Carry Your Own Weight by Buika feat. Jason Mraz. Every single time I doubt myself, my writing, my creative abilities; one good listen to Beautiful Mess by Jason Mraz fixes my insecurities (even if it’s just for a few hours).
What I’m saying is: Jason Mraz’s music heals.
The Universe also seems dead set on not allowing me to meet Jason Mraz so I don’t think he’ll ever realize the impact his music has had in my life. I don’t think he’ll ever know that as soon as I hear the first few chords of “I Won’t Give Up”, my heart immediately feels lighter. He’ll never know that I play “Living In The Moment” every time I forget how beautiful life is. I don’t think I’ll ever get to tell him that when I first moved out of my parents’ house the only thing keeping me from running back to mommy and daddy was “93 Million Miles”. He won’t ever know that he captured my every feeling about my best friend with his song “Best Friend”. Our paths will probably never actually cross but I am so lucky to be alive in his lifetime.
I don’t know what would have happened that morning in 2012, with the pills in my hand; I’m just glad that I found his music and that it helped pick me up off the floor. So here’s to you Jason Mraz! You continue to create music that changes lives and we can never thank you enough for that.
This is the video I stumbled upon in 2012. I hope it makes a positive impact in your life.