“The most grown-up thing you can do is fail at things you really care about”
For most of my life I have felt more comfortable standing in the shadows. I specifically curated my all-black wardrobe when I was a teenager, so that I would have no reason to stand-out. I have never felt comfortable being the center of attention, though you may find that hard to believe if you know the current Julie. Current Julie finds herself in the center of attention quite often, she jokes and laughs and has purple hair; it has taken me quite a while to get to here though.
I am constantly trying to work through my darkness; I find myself in a never-ending fight of frustration when I don’t feel like a grown-up and still feeling the yearning to stay a child forever. I gravitate towards the unicorns and the rainbows but am often reminded that I have surpassed that age.
She finds herself in that wonderful age where you’re still trying to find yourself, but expected by others to know what you are doing. I’m currently in the thick of it and have never felt more frustrated in my life. Brie beautifully portrays the confusion and irritation, she plays with the glimpses of joy in a wonderful way and completely had me believing in the power of a unicorn throughout the entire film.
Why does growing-up mean forgetting the joy of rainbows and unicorns? Why do you have to get serious in order to become an adult? I am struggling with this. The writer in me is fighting with this reality and honestly, I’m ready to throw in the towel. I am embracing the rainbows and the unicorns, I am allowing the child in me to run wild and I am FINISHING A DAMN PROJECT THIS YEAR.
Brie reminded of how exciting it is to care about a project and she showed me how big the pay-off is when you finally complete something. She did this through the character Kit and by Unicorn Store being her directorial debut. I am in awe by the wonder that is Brie and I am excited to see where she takes her talents next.
So thank you Brie Larson for the colorful way in which you decided to create for your directorial debut. Thank you for the art, for the inspiration and for the constant reminder that I must keep going.