Sure, change is inevitable but I have worked overtime to keep it at bay for five years.
I know, it’s been a while. I semi-abandoned this website at the end of 2019 but I promise that a very busy Julie was searching for words every single day she didn’t post on here. Life has gotten unprecedentedly busy and I’m trying to keep up but I clearly have been lacking in the multi-tasking of it all.
2020 brought in a major change and I’m still sorting my feelings about the matter. January 1st came with it’s very unique set of expectations and energy towards the new year and I’ve just been trying to live up to it every single day. Happy to report that the New Year motivation bliss has yet to subside.
I have already gotten some work done on some resolutions, I’ve been reconnecting with friends that I had abandoned and I’ve truly let go of toxic people. I’ve made 2020 my bitch and we’re only 17 days in.
Here’s the thing, I have been at the same job for five years. Not that my life has been stagnant; I’ve been promoted, moved departments and assisted other departments with new tasks. I have seen people come and go and come again (this place has a reputation for people always coming back to it after they quit). I have gotten offers to leave and I’ve always stayed. I got comfortable.
The people are what made the difference. Truly, I have never worked with a better group of people in my life. Even when new people came, when old ones left, everyone always just fit perfectly in the group. I have never been a part of such a diverse, empowering and loving team. Which is what made my decision to leave that much more difficult.
The goodbye came on January 14th and I’m still processing, but I’m almost certain that I made the right decision.
Change is necessary and this particular decision was needed for my growth.
The hotel and the city that the hotel was in, were the first places in Los Angeles that felt like home. The hotel was the reason why I initially moved to Los Angeles. I have met some of my closest friends at the hotel. I have been encouraged to write, have been celebrated for my writing accomplishments and have been accepted with my Jake Gyllenhaal obsession and all. This time, at this hotel, with every single person that has come and gone, feels like a piece of magic that I won’t ever get again.
Goodbyes are truly the worst but I am grateful for the five years at this place. I am indebted to the people that heard me vent, to the ones that listened to my tv, movie and music recommendations and to the ones that I forced to come to concerts with me.
This tiny space in Venice Beach will always hold the softest of spots in my heart and I won’t easily forget how much this place helped me become who I am today.
Here’s to new adventures in 2020.