My mom and my niece left for a mini-vacation on the last week of February. Unfortunately, that little mini-vacation has quickly become an extended stay and I’m emotional about it!
It took my mom and I a while to get to a good place. I, unfortunately, have my father’s personality. Spoiler alert: my parents are not together. I’ve had to work extremely hard to find a healthy way to communicate with my mother. I have gone to therapy and she … has accepted the fact that I have gone to therapy. Thankfully, we’ve been in a good place for quite some time now, yes it also surprises me.
These last few years have been dedicated to making up for the many, many mistakes I made when I was younger. I was lucky to have a strong mother, a patient mother, a selfless mother; because I did try, when I was younger, to break her.
Though I refuse to be the only one to blame for our previously strenuous relationship. I mean, being the oldest daughter of an immigrant family is not an easy thing to be. While growing up I had to ensure that my parents’s sacrifices were paying off, that their traditional values were being upheld, all while attempting to become my own person. It is also true that we have both worked extremely hard to get to this place.
Mother’s Day may just be the most important holiday for me; there are plans, presents, dinner plans and a whole lotta love being thrown at one woman for the entire day. This year is different; there are zero plans and no presents to be distributed today. I get it! Many people are struggling with real issues, I get that, I’m not a monster! But like, let me feel out loud!
I miss my mami and I don’t care who knows it!
My mom and I have spent many years and tears trying to repair our relationship. So today, Mother’s Day 2020, is a bit bittersweet for me. FaceTime can only do so much for two people hundreds of miles away from each other. I know we’re all going through it right now, but I really needed to feel out loud. I hit the damn lottery with my mom and I just wish she were here so that I could go all out for her today.
What will you be doing for your mamis on Mother’s Day.
Some of my favorite pictures of my mom: